BitterSweet Chocolate

to reach home at 9 pm for the pass few days.

to be able to meet my best friends twice this week.

to be able to have breakfast with daddy.

to be able to breathe, and live this moment.

i always, i mean always say that life is short and blah blah n blah the blah. the more i think of it the more i am wasting my time, am i?

i have a little story to share. this morning, like every other morning i will go to the 7-11 opposite my condominium to get the morning papers. well, every morning i will see the same regular staff working there. they would recognize me and greet me. but today was rather different. there was this new guy at the counter, he watched as i walk in the shop. i grab the paper and secretly taking a peek at his face. he looked back. he said out loud as i was walking out the door, “don’t worry, you will have a nice day, i am sure”. then he smiled. i was gawddamn shocked! instead of wishing him like have a nice first day at work, i quickly rush out of the shop. what came to my mind was how on earth he knows that i was worrying about something? is it that obvious that it’s written on my face? come to think about it, no.  anyway, before i exit the 7-Eleven, i turn to him and we exchange smiles.

life is not all about the ups and downs, the problems and the worries, but the different people that you meet or come across your daily life that make a difference.

I have been worrying about things that are not even happening yet. I don’t want to waste my time thinking about shits and then realize that i have been wasting my time worrying and not embracing this moment.

you should do to. live every moment as if it’s your last. baby jas0n always tells me this. =) and i hope to you who is reading this, whether you lost you enthusiasm in doing something or having a bad day, do remember my advice. look forward to small small things that will make you smile and keep you going. after achieving it look forward to more that is coming your way.

smile like you mean it. =)

TVC heavy.

all morning i was in the meeting room, trying to crack the last 3 TVC for Kiwi Instant Shoe Wax for Indonesia region. well, all i can say is i am done with it. and SATISFIED. glad that i am able to contribute to the team and am just glad that they are supportive over me.

Day 18 went well, and to be really honest, i did not feel the Monday blues in me. did i tell u i left early? haha, one of my best day at work. they gave me a break. finally~

it has been awhile since i last blogged about my internship progress. yesterday i was busy brainstorming for an idea for a TVC for Kiwi (natural extracts), a brand that does floor cleaning agent and other stuff.

my brain juice was really all so dried up and yet today i have a new task. right now i have to start from scratch to come up with and idea for Kiwi Instant Wax for shoe polish. this ad will be shown only in Indonesia. they are no more guiding me. omg, if i screw up, i …

urm… i don’t even want to think about it. am putting so much pressure on myself, hopefully i can think of something.

to be a pink star fish, sitting by the beach, sipping a cute glass of pina colada.

I try my very best not to look at the bad side of internship.

Every morning i wake up, i will try to think of something that motivates me, or something really simple that can keep me happ, even for 5 minutes.

Today i woke up thinking positive. As soon as i got out from home, i realize the sky in KL was brighter and clearer than yesterday. Is it really the sky is brighter or is it just me?

Yesterday i had a very bad day. I went to the toilet to let out my tears. honestly working in a big advertising company is a big deal. I didn’t cry because i was stressed up or what not, it is simply because i was being urm, how do i say this? Well the seniors here definitely not as friendly as i thought they would be. Thank goodness I have Farah here with me, supporting me in many ways. (Good friends are like angels on earth right?)

Anyway i would like to keep things this way, as i am more open and positive now.

If you are having a bad day and wish you could finish the day faster, try my method. try looking forward to small small things that will make you smile. even for a second.

Right now i am blogging in my office. Waiting to have breakfast with Farah. Then to chat with Mia, Scha, Illy, Steph, Farah and Kah Yee (yesh, ppl that i chat with almost everyday in the office). Looking forward for baby jas0n’s ms. Waiting for my daddy to call, To take a toilet break in between. And yes, all this little things made me smile.

Beyond what is going to happen today, I am so looking forward to have dinner with Illy (i miss you la), a mamak session with my bestfriends this weekend, go back to Cyberjaya to check in my new place, cuddle with baby jas0n, go for the Maxis Wild life Blogging party which is organized by Nuffnang (I got tix!).

See, just when I am so positive about life, all the good thing comes. AND do you know, while blogging this, the director of human resource came here and told me that i am offered a job in Grey after i graduate? oh not to mention,there’s a guy who exits the lift with me ran out from behind and open the door for me. =D

if my boss and colleagues would to throw money on me like how they would throw work loads on me, i probably would be damn rich and can retire by 25.

(I’m still in the office doing key visuals and concept bored  boards)

oh when will this end?

none the less, today was a better day than yesterday. and it always will be.

i hope tomorrow will be a better day than today. =)

brain dead.

today is farah nadia’s first day. =D

my daddy is my inspiration.

i lost my mom when i was 11. that was like the very very crucial time for me to have a mummy by my side. that is when i will be needing to buy my first bra, getting my period, figuring out how to get a pad on for the first time, advice on love, tips for grow into a young lady. Mummy wasn’t there for me. it was time for her to go. all i had was daddy.

my daddy worked hard for the family just to make sure my brother and i can live comfortably. he gave us almost anything.. and yes i mean anything. but that is not why i love him so much. my daddy is simply the most special man in my life.

he is some one i talk to when i am down, he is someone i can share a joke with, he is someone who understands me, inside out. he has been my pillar, through all these years of my life. when i am weak, i will tend to turn to him and lean on his strong shoulders.

i use to want to grow up really fast when i was younger, but now i think life is moving on too fast.

i just had a talk with him that day, he was telling me how fast i grew up, but never the less, he said i will always be his little girl.

my daddy is just very imspirational. he is a good leader, a good friend, a hella creative guy and above all, a good father. most teenager wish and probably will die to have him as their dad, because i dare say my daddy is very very cool! in high school i use to come back with piercings (like a lot~) he is still fine with it. other than piercing, he is also ok with my —— =) infact he got me that for my 20th b’day. i am pretty sure he knows a lot of (the bad) things that i have done, but some how or rather, there are many many times that i think he is backing me up. like one incident where i got busted in the cybercafe when i was 13. lets not go there now shall we.

he might be a lil impatient sometimes, but that is just it. there are many lessons that i have learned from him, and he will remind me over and over again. he always very particular about time, punctuality, and always teach me skills in order to be a good leader. my daddy is good in many things that i am not. i tend to rely on him, all the time.

ah, i will never be able to write all that my daddy is and what he has done for me. the list just goes on and on and on.

to sum it up, i just want to say Thank You daddy for giving me the 2 best thing in the world that anyone could ever ask for.. love and education.

HAPPY FATHER’s DAY and HAPPY BIRTHDAY daddy ~

i blame it on friday 13th.

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We’re just one big family and
It’s our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, I won’t hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait I’m sure
there’s no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, I’m yours

is filled with a sunny sunshine, rainbows and butterflies. =)