BitterSweet Chocolate

I think it has gotten worst

I am trying to go full time vegetarian.

Don’t know if i am strong enough.

This is what happen when I was poke too many times with the syringe.

Went to support a blood donation drive at plaza sentral today

Same old problem.. The nurse couldn’t find my vein. She complained that I didn’t do enough housework. Such a cranky lady. Sheeshh!

She poke the needle through my skin many times at the same spot. Have to say i was a bit scared compared to all the times that I have donated and this is definitely the most painful. When my pint was half pack full.. My blood just decided to flow, the nurse came and pull out the needle and push it back in further. What did I just got myself into?!
Ouh well it’s for a good cause I guess.

I feel trapped, very trapped.

I cry secretly everyday.

I don’t have the answer for myself, I really don’t.

I wonder why I ever feel this way?

I’m envious,

Of some who are successful,

Of those who are carefree,

And those who work in Starbucks,

And still be happy.

I don’t need much money, I don’t need much.

I just want to do something that will make my heart sing.

I’m searching for it,

I know it exist,

Right now I’m just lost,

I guess,

Someday I will find it.

Omg!!! How I miss blogging! *teary eyes*

Urgh, been really bz lately.. Yea as you can see my lst real post was posted in Dec.

I have not been able to blog due to work. Well, my daily routine is basically like go to work, then off to the gym and when i get home it’s usually 10.30-11 PM! yes PM! what I do next? I sleep! What about weekends you ask? My weekends are dedicated to my family!!

Gosh this working thing has been pulling mem down. I feel so lifeless. Never been to a club for bout a month plus. Never got to catch up with my buddies for yumcha session for too long! I even miss Tim when he was here in Malaysia. arghhh! I hate myself.

So yeah, finally got food poisoning yesterday. Don’t know what nonsense i ate.Keep vomiting out sh*t. I was in such a mess, and I think i scare baby Jason a bit. :<

So today I had decided to work from home, and thus I have a lil time for my blog. Can almost see virtual corppe webs! *eewwww*

Will be off to Thailand this friday. Will be back! (hopefully I find fried grasshopper and morning glory *fingers crossed*)

Ciao for now.

Nope, I am still here.

Been VERY BUSY at work, hence the abandonment of my blog.

Can almost see the virtual coppe webs =\ *eew*

Will be back very soon as I have a lot of juicy stuff to share!! =D

p/s: HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL AND MAY 2010 BE AN ASS KICKING YEAR!!

Christmas 2009 with besties..

*cheers*

Have you ever what colour you resembles?

I have always wonder what colour  the name Michelle carries. I took a wild guess. I thought it might be purple. I was right! Well for most Michelle.

I think I’m more of a Green, Yellow and Brown kinda person.

=)

I think I need help from a psychiatrist.

I get easily depressed when I see people who are disabled, especially those who are visually impaired.

You have no idea how much it breaks me inside.

Sometimes I wonder why God made us.

So that we can live, and experience life? Live to suffer? Live to make a change in someone else’s life? Live to help people who are less fortunate? Live to find love?

Live for others?

I don’t really know my purpose here on earth, but what I do know is that life is almost perfect for me, but I get emotionally depressed when I cannot help. What should I do, what should I do?

I want to make this life fulfilling. There’s so many things I wish I could do. Like just quit my job, sit at the LRT station to guide those who need my help. But that is just plain silly.

Then I will be in need of money to survive myself. How am I gonna take care of my parents when they grow old, when I don’t have a career.

My mind is full of shit. I can’t think.