BitterSweet Chocolate

I have known her for all my life, even longer than I have known my own mother.

I never realized how much I depended on her, and needed her.

I crawl to her every time, to seek comfort when I am sick, when my torn blouse need some sewing. No one cooks like she does, no one care like she does, and no one love me like she does.

She is strong, smart, incredibly creative lady with a kind heart and a gentle spirit.

It is hard not to love and miss a person like that.

I miss her very much.. and I wish that she is here right now to tell me that everything will be okay.

I miss u, Mama.

departed peacefully on 16th May 2010.

Do you remember
When we met
That’s the day
I knew you were my pet

Come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love

I want to tell you
how much
I love you

I am truly thankful that I have you baby.

Today I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Was awefully moody and extremely feeling all dark and emo. Baby came over to see me, but I kinda lost my temper (feels so guilty now).

Although I was so moody, he was very patient with me. He tried many ways to cheer me up. Tied  to bribe me with cupcakes, desserts and sorts. He even brought me on a ride to God-knows-where. We were on the road driving aimlessly, hoping it will cheer me a lil. Then we stop by at Mid Valley, had a very yummy tiramisu at Delicious.

Honestly it was good. But what made me feel even better was to know that he was with me by my side, all day long. so patiently, and trying oh so hard just to see me smile.

Baby, you are the best thing that ever happened to me.

I love you.

xoxo,

Michelle

Happy birthday sayang…

It’s good to see you jump once in a while and drop your bubble gum *wink*

<3

i woke up on Wednesday morning only to find baby jas0n waiting for me down there at NEA apartment with a bouquet of flowers. it is not even my birthday yet, but hey, i liked it! =)

all in all, this is the third time jas0n is giving me flowers. i don’t usually get flowers for valentines, birthdays and so on.. i only get them when he happens to find daisy, even though it is not my birthday. for the past two times its was just daisies, but this time it was OXEYE DAISY!!! my favourite! cannot get it locally you know, and somehow he managed to find them <3

there’s 1 word to describe my 22nd birthday = “superduperuberly100%funandwarmanditsallgreen!”

yeah… somehow this year was better than the last.

all my green goodies

a parcel came from the US. apparently i won a craft book from threadbanger.

handmade nation

they only gave out five copies. guess i was lucky~

(even the book is green!)

couldn’t be any happier

jimmy the krokodil

he has a tag on the hand that says “Michelle, Please take me home *RAWR*”

haha, it was so funny.. i thought only dinos rawr..

my new boyfriend

a blankie to keep me warm at night!

then off we go to dinner…

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I am so glad to be back!

What happen. I started having off and on fever since the Saturday, two weeks ago. Just came back from my Life Saving Course and got immediate sunburn and slight fever. Fever never went off. Basically was sick for the whole mid-term break.

Seeking help. Then it came to Sunday night, a week after that. Mid term break ended, went back to campus, and thats when i started vomiting non-stop. Went to the 3 different doctor, that week. Diagnosed with a viral fever and got myself a few jabs on the butt and a blood test. Not dengue, so it is a relieve. But more vomiting and fever. Can’t do anything but to lie down and get some good rest.

Vomiting worsen as the day goes, body rejecting food intake, then on Thursday, body started to reject water. can’t even take a single droplet of water.

Grandma suggested that I seek a Chinese medium for help. I went to the temple, the guy went on TRANCE!!! I am so so so so so so so scared. So sorry to say this, but I was freaking shaking like a leaf when I saw him go on trance. He held my hand and told me what symptoms I had been having for this past few days, and then he gave something for recovery.

I went home and do as he said. I SWEAR! i started eating and drinking. was craving for some sweet drinks and food. So then, I took a nap and that night everything came out. nope, nothing was digested. I survived 4 days without food and 2 days plus without water. Till last Saturday midnight, I was admitted to Pantai, Cheras.

The condition. When i was in the hospital, I had a quick blood test, and normal procedure, then admitted. Found out that fever was a bad viral fever, had severe gastric problem. And because of the gastric that I had, it trigger some kidney problem, mainly due to dehydration.

The feeling. It sucks to stay in the hospital. I don’t remember my last stay in HUKM was this awful. The bed was really uncomfortable, the food was bad, toilet was funny (it had a mini ramp like those you see in X games), injections was painful, medication was bitter, had the whole room to myself was scary, hand was numb and blood drawing was the worst!

Bored and lonely. I never really tell anyone that I was admitted, whether my friends or family. Grandma called from Singapore, Daddy and I had to lie. So I was dead bored to be honest. I never felt so bored and lonely before. I didn’t want my friends to see me in that state, didn’t want my parents to stay over to accompany me, because the environment was really uncomfortable , so I will tell them that I am OKAY.

Daddy brought me my handphone, PSP, hoping it will keep me company, but I was on drips, couldn’t even type a proper message and can’t even play a proper game.

There’s nothing to be watched on TV when there is no Astro. All I see on TV is just Malaysia’s ex and new Prime Minister. Every single hour of the day, same old news. The only time I was really watching TV was on Sunday morning, when Spongebob was aired on TV3, or was it NTV7?

THANK GOODNESS FOR CLEO top 50 Bachelors MAGAZINE!

if it hadn’t be it, i will be counting holes on my body.

Hygiene. I haven’t been able to bathe or shower since Thursday. I STINK. I cannot take it. Same clothes, same undies, and to make things worst, i had period. Waited and waited till Sunday when the nurse finally let me off drip for an hour. I bathe, and bathe and bathe. Getting my hair wet never felt this good!

What I don’t like. Taking blood! They never find my vein. Honestly, I am a very weird human being. Only can draw blood from right hand, and since my right hand is on drip, they have got no choice but to take blood from my left. The doctor have to poke 2-4 times to get it right. T___T

I appreciate. The nurses and doctor who are so good at their job.

Things I did when I reach home. take off clothes & bandages, bathe & shave weigh myself =D, spray a lot of EA. my fav.

Now. I am feeling so so much better. Recovering well, worried at the same time though. Don’t know if I can make it to my presentation this coming 14th. I have to speed things up, try to catch up with time that I have lost.

i used to want a boyfriend when i was younger.

then, i used to want a boyfriend who is very “lala”.

then i wanted a guy who is very athletic.

then another guy who is religious.

then i wished for a tall dark and handsome one.

then i wished harder a guy who can shower me with anything and everything i wanted.

but then, i forgot to wish that they could at least come with brains.

my valentines this year was one of the most randomest thing ever.

it is really one of our simple yet most random and sweet date~

this is what we did on our 3rd anniversary

the weather was great.

preparation in the morning of our big day

first stop : jas0n’s house

baby jasOn cooked his all famous scramble eggs for me

so yummy…

breakfast is served with love! (and a big cup of ribena, my fav!)

it was all fun and games.

baby jas0n hid so many clue cards, that in the end will lead me to a surprise. =)

that was fun!

freshen up before we head out for lunch.

love his room mirror btw. so big!

then we went to Fullhouse cafe

i swear it is the sweetest and cosiest cafe around!

this is the ground floor. super cute and cosy.

the first floor.

the interior is all white!

that’s my date

it’s a cafe cum boutique

most of their stuff are imported from korea..

super funky tees, but it cost a bomb

the food that i recommend are the soups, mushroom soup is the best!

ice lemon tea and lime juice.. *slurps*

urm, this is something that i probably will not order if i would to go back there.

it is not that yummy

oh oh, the ice cream is superb! soft and sandy chocolate chip cookie.

homemade =)

i’m drooling while blogging

i cleaned my ice-cream cup alright.

ouh didn’t realize there was a bird next to jas0n all this time when we were eating

shopping time!! i couldn’t wait to get my butt up after makan.

ran around like a crazy lady, looking at some blouses and bags.

look at the vain pot

hmm, it actually does look good on him

was hiding in the toilet

bag shopping

more stuff to look buy

=D

after lunch we went shopping. then we got bored and decided to take those seriously lame but fun picture from those Japanese speaking sticker photobooth

aaaa…super fun i tell u. we went for it twice!!!!

so much fun posing and editing the pictures.

this is the first try, both looking decent and all. second one was horrifying!

i think i will just keep that to myself.

then, we had dinner at the cave.

The Cave basically stands for couple cafe. sweet name and cool concept.

i have not been there before. i heard they have a very nice and exotic environment. they spent 4million to build it.

let me be the judge of it.

this is where our table is. in the corner and the back of the cave.

if im not mistaken it is call the “couple cave” hehe, i feel like a dino *rawr*

we have the whole room to ourselves and lots of privacy.

the food and drinks there are really no big deal

camwhoring near the toilet

the boyfriend

on the way out

after a full long day of fun and food, we are now a pair of

satisfied couple!

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